Ok, I get sick waaayyyy too much. I don't know why. It just seems to be every winter I catch some kind of cold or flu or something that will prevent me from going out and having fun. Instead I stay inside my stuffy little box of a room with no one to talk to and nothing to keep me occupied for more than 5 mins at a time while everyone I know is out having a good time. Even my boyfriend. He said last night that if I wasn't feeling better today and didn't go to work that he would come over and make me soup and take care of me like I did for him when he was sick. So when I decided not to go to work and spread my germs to all the customers I sent Ben an IM telling him that I'm home. He didn't answer right away so I figured he was still asleep and would answer when he woke up like he normally does. Usually I don't even have to send him a message in the morning. He'll just automatically get up and send me an IM saying how much he loves me and misses me...or even just a simple "mornin". But not this morning. I got nothing. So after sleeping for a good 4 hours or so I decided to call Ben. He was at the store with Kim, his sister, said he couldn't talk and that he'd call me back when he got home and then rushed off the phone. So I made myself some soup and watched tv from 1-3:30 and then called again out of bordom and hopes that he was home. He was still at the store but at the check out line. He rushed again and said he'd call me when he got home which I figured wouldn't be too long after since he lives 3 mins away from the store. So I waited and waited and watched more tv. Then an hour and 15 mins later I came into my room and IM'ed him to see if he was home. And he was. He didn't call me like he said he would and on top of that he said he won't see me until later tonight. I asked when because I feel like I'm about to go insane any minute now out of absolute bordom. And he said "when I can". Which he never says. Usually he can't wait to see me. He never wants me to leave at night when I'm at his house. He's constantly telling me that he never wants to be without me and today it seems like he doesn't even care if he sees me today or not. And as much as I would like to see him right now if he's going to be like that I don't think I want him to come over. Maybe this cold is just getting to me. I've been really edgy lately and snapping at people. Maybe I just need to chill out and rest.